January 5, 2010
After the Holidays, I had finally reached the point where I was sick of eating an eternity of junk food, cakes, pies, cookies and rich foods. I was disgusted with myself and felt disgusting, to say the least.
I had previously been on Weight Watchers where I began at 276 lbs. and lost 30 lbs. but the temptation and carelessness at the Holidays, left me ballooning to within 3 lbs of the starting weight.
At my heaviest, I weighed in at a whopping 304 lbs and with a 52 in waist. I had dropped to 275 several years back and fluctuated between 260 and 275.
When I started on HCG I was 273.
I was intrigued with the information on HCG and how it works, but to be honest, as a physician, I was highly skeptical that the claims of weight loss (about 1 lb per day) was total “hooey.” Ok, so having been on every commercial diet known to man, I decided I had nothing to lose. I found myself at 52, weighing 273, had diabetes (type 2) was on 2 medications for blood sugar, medication for a heart arrhythmia a few months before, blood pressure medicine (for about 15 years now) and was feeling literally, like crap. I hated buying clothes since my size was difficult to find in stores and of course only fat people wear the ugliest clothes style. No matter how stylish I wanted to dress, I just couldn’t find the right clothes or to be honest, didn’t think anything looked good on me. When you have to buy your boxer shorts at Walmart instead of Macy’s, it’s humbling! That’s because only Walmart or Penney’s carry the 2X size underwear. And certainly there was nothing very “stylish.”
Then there was the problem of getting undressed. I rarely did it near a mirror and would never look at myself in the bathroom. I was disgusted and disappointed in myself. I was a wreck emotionally and physically by the time I started.
To make matters worse, my wife had recently lost 50 lbs and was looking great and feeling great after a lengthy bout of chronic back pain and was nearly bed-ridden for many months. She was depressed, short of breath and was told that losing weight would help her back pain. And, it did. 50lbs. and she fought hard to get them, and I just kept on eating and regaining 30 lbs over the Thanksgiving-New Years stretch. I couldn’t keep going on at the same pace. A walking time bomb and worst of all, a medical doctor who certainly knew better! How shameful I felt at times!
To be honest, I my wife’s urging, we started talking about going back on a diet after the holidays where she had regained 6 lbs of her recently lost 50. She hit a plateau on her weight loss and was “stuck” at a certain weight despite dieting rigorously. Through my association with the HCG clinic at New Beginnings, I embarked on the journey.
Now, I have to be frank here, I am the biggest wimp when it comes to going to the doctors or needles and had my doubts that I would be able to do it. My wife promised that she would do the injecting and that I wouldn’t “have to look” (this is no joke!). I was scared to death of needles! Can you believe that?
So, we went in for a consultation and decided to do it together. I went in wanting to lose 70-80 lbs. but not sure if that was a realistic, or even an achievable goal.
I decided to take “before” pictures (which I have locked in a vault!) and embarked on the journey. I was so unsure of my success since I am not a “vegetable” or “salad” guy and never have been. I wasn’t sure what I was getting myself into but decided to take the leap.
The 1st week:
Day 1 and 2, the “gorge” days were awesome but since I was so bloated feeling and prone to indigestion lately after all my holiday binging, I really couldn’t even eat half of what was recommended. Despite my heavy carb intake, I lost 4lbs on the first day, oddly enough. I figured it was a “fluke” or just “water” weight. I had to learn to keep track of what I ate and figure out the menu and plan foods, etc. Not so hard since the menu was pretty small or at least restricted as to what I could or better yet, would eat.
I began losing several pounds per day much to the dismay of my wife, but she was losing ½-1 lb per day. I was having some trouble after 4 days on the diet with my blood sugars and was running low in the in the afternoons and dizzy in the mornings. I decided to discontinue one of my blood sugar medicines after consulting with my doctor, and this solved the problem. However, I began having bad headaches about day 4 and they continued for about 1.5 weeks and then subsided. I think I was so used to eating so many carbs and so much “junk” during the Holidays, that my body was in ‘withdrawal.” I had to really remember my waters and in the first few days when my blood sugar would run low I would eat 2 extra fruits a day but then dropped those once I saw the blood sugars stable day after day.
In week one, I am shocked and also very proud that I lost 17 lbs!. Some days 2-4 lbs! I must say and no real hunger, only emotional desire to eat - especially in the evenings, my worst time traditionally. I soon learned to counter with hot tea or espresso (a double or triple) with Truvia. This was my “dessert.”
The injecting was a piece of cake (oops, poor analogy!) and by the end of the first week, I started injecting myself and really didn’t even feel it. I had to look to even see where I stuck myself. I really noted the pounds literally “melting” off me.
By the second week, I was no longer “gagging” on lettuce and actually enjoyed eating it at lunch when I was hungry but not ravenous. I noticed that I could now “taste” the lettuce and that my sense of taste was hyper “acute” where I was oddly aware of the taste of my food. It was a “new found” sensation! I experimented with every kind of tea I could find and found many favorites. I must have a dozen or more that I rotate daily and use to “kill” any suspected hunger but now, at day 26, I have to struggle to finish my conservative menu.
The 2nd Week
By week 2: down 26 lbs! and feeling pretty good. Still a few headaches but nothing of real mention.
The 3rd Week
Down a whopping 32 lbs.! Can’t remember when I was below 250!!
I have recently discovered the joys of the Walden Farms web site www.waldenfarms.com, where everything is sugar free, carb free and calorie free. Just to add to the variety of what the local stores carry. I also learned that strawberries are just about the “perfect” fruit! You get more bang for the buck by dividing up the amount you can eat and have 3 fruits (mentally that is). I love them with Truvia sprinkled on top or dipping them into it. Or the veritable fruit smoothie. (6-8 strawberries with 2 packs of Truvia and a heaping cup of ice) blend it fine and enjoy! This is heaven as an after dinner snack. Helps me with my old usual “grazing” times.
So, I am now at Day 26 and down 34.5 lbs.! and counting. My goal is to hit 200 and really want to drop to 185, but am not sure how I will look at 185, but will decide when I get there. I will be thrilled when I can fit into a size 38, 501 Levis! They don’t make them in “fat boy” sizes! Yesterday I did buy size 42 trousers. (I started at size 46!) Had to, my old pants kept falling down!! Not an attractive site especially at work!
So... more to come…. I hope I can lose 14 more pounds before this cycle ends! That’s my short term goal. For a total of 48! Let’s see if I can make it. What a humongous hurdle! Right now I’m no longer carrying on my frame, 6 packages of sugar!! (6-5lb bags!!) Think about that! Six 5 lb bags! Try and hold 2 in your arms a few minutes never mind carry that along all day!! Wow, its absolutely amazed and I have no choice but so far, to be a believer in HCG!